Friday, May 2, 2008

I have turned into THAT girl!!

You know the one I am talking about, the one that has a baby and then completely lets herself go. I am officially her!! The one that we all swore we would not become. The one that wears pajamas all day long and only shaves her legs when she has to. The one that has gotten so use to not wearing makeup that it doesn't even phase her to leave the house without it anymore. The one that tries to see how long she can get away without washing her hair and sometime goes 4 days without even showering. The one that no longer gets dressed up to go anywhere unless it is a special occasion, and by dressed up I mean jeans and a shirt that has actually been washed since the last time she put it on. The one that doesn't even remember her last pedicure and is lucky to even have polish on her toes. The one that spends WAY more time on the couch watching TV than doing any kind of housework. The one who swore she would not let herself become fat after having a baby and now cant seem to get the motivation to get her fat butt off the couch and exercise! I don't think my poor husband knew what he was getting himself into when he married cute skinny little me. I have turned into a monster, completely let myself go, and abandoned all self care and logic! Quite often lately I have looked at my husband and thought how lucky I am to have him and how HOT he is...he still has it!! I stopped to wonder the other day if he ever looks at me and thinks the same thing...or if he ever will again. The moment I knew I hit rock bottom: This morning when I told Brandon that it was my GOAL to start brushing my teeth every morning and not only when I am going to leave the house!!! Who has a GOAL to brush their teeth?!?!? Everyone just does it...apparently everyone but me. I guess I am going to have to step it up and make myself get dressed in the morning and brush my teeth, put makeup on my face and have a big happy smile and a kiss for my poor husband when he gets home from work. Maybe then he will get a small glimpse of the cute girl he once married and forget about the old hag I have become.

6 leave your thoughts here:

Hobbs Family said...

I think that everyone goes through this at least a little. especially after having a baby. Hang in there. If you think it's real bad go see your dr. if not just hag in and things will get better.

Hanna said...

Alisha, you are not alone! You just described me EXACTLY!! I mean, every word. I actually got tears in my eyes reading it, because this is how I feel. The wonderful thing is, is I think most people go through this. Our husbands love us more than anything, and they are so willing to get through this "phase" with us. They think we are beautiful regardless. We just have to keep remembering that. This too shall pass. Right now you are doing what is important, and that is loving your beautiful baby girl. One day at a time. I actually will add one thing to my "routine" untill I can master that, and then I will add something else. I love ya, and I think you are a wonderful person!!
Love, Hanna

{owens} said...

Hey you have to try out that "daddy shirt" dress. It is so easy. Here is the link to try it out. You can make dresses up to 4T. Ps. That was the very first sewing project i've ever done, so it can't be hard.

{owens} said...

http://www.craftster.org/forum/index.php?topic=170402.0%3C/a

Sorry forgot to put this on there.

Rachy said...

Hey- Don't be so hard on yourself! You are beautiful no matter what you do.... or don't do! Your friend Hanna is right, It's just a phase, it shall pass. But hang in there! If you need anyone to talk to on days like that, you can always call me! Love, Rach

PS. What you look like doesn't detract from the great mom and wife you are! always remember that.

katie said...

Hey everyone goes through it even if they won't admit it. And your husband loves you for you,haven't you heard that song "one hot mama"?I think that it is a good reminder!!